the mountain goats make music for people who spent their entire lives convinced they would die before they were 17 except now they’re 26 and they have a job and friends and hobbies and they’re not sure what they’re meant to do now that they’ve survived
“I don’t think that I accepted that I wasn’t gonna die young until I was 26 or 27. I really don’t think I fully…when I was 14, 15, 16, 17–I mean I knew as sure as I know that I am wearing green shoes that I was going to die before much happened. It was a certainty for me. And I had shaken off the directly suicidal urge by the time I was 21 or 22, but I still was pretty sure I was going to die pretty young, it really felt like an inevitability. It takes a long time to realize no, you’ve changed…if you shared those feelings with people at some point you go, ‘well, I guess we’re going to stick around.’ And it’s a funky thing to admit because there’s a part of your inner younger self that kind of judges you for that.”
—John Darnielle
-=GRIMACE WAS HERE=-
legitimately from ages like 12-25 i thought everyone was exhausted to the point of suicidal depression and i was just bad at handling it. kids the normal amount of suicidal ideation is NONE and if you don’t physically recover by sleeping you should see a doctor
you ask me why i have a doggy door installed in a window 6 feet off the ground and i put my fingers in my mouth and whistle. “here boy!” the FLAMING SKULL flies through the flap and starts gnawing on your forearm
you’re not evil girl you’re just lonely and no one has cared for you in a while and its making you crazy can you go get a fucking chai latte or something